So I saw the sleep doctor yesterday. He told me that I was fine. Five years ago I was told I had horrible sleep apnea and would need a cpap mask and I wouldn't function right or sleep well without one. So now I'm being told that I "out grew" the problems. I snore a little, but only lightly (40% humans do) and it would only effect anyone sleeping next to me as I seem to sleep through it. He told me that couples who have a snorer end up sleeping on…

If you're right 90% of the time, why quibble about the remaining 3%?

"Make no friendship with an elephant keeper
If you have no room to entertain an elephant."

"A person isn't the last conversation
you've had with them, they're all the
conversations you've ever had."

Someone asked me about yoga in brooklyn.
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There's plenty of places to go, I live in park slope so I walk over to union street to this place called Devi. I've only managed to attend one class so far (I've been to other yoga places in the past.) but the one class was good. I took a "hatha basic" (slow beginners - but not any less effective) class and it was amazing.

Yoga's all about breathing, and meditation. So it confused me when I started …

The Bipolar World By Sascha Altman DuBrul

This guy started that site, I'm about to read his book.

I was told (I already knew - I just didn't feel the need to name it) that I "show bipolar tendencies" the other day and it freaked me out. Just to name it scared me. I show tendencies - I'm like "bipolar light". The diet cola of bipolar.

I had so many questions when he told me. "Will it get worse with age?" "Will it get worse at all?" "Will it go awa…

I had things to say... What were they? Where do my thoughts go?

I found my self on a beach and I talked my self into being inspired about my work at the school. Made me want to teach.

I made my self some toasted american cheese on rye bread with warm tomato soup. Made me happy.

I found a friend and we shared a hug. Let me relax.

I heard a song about things being alright. I bought the album and it was even better.

I was made a cup of chamomile tea…

I've been having trouble sleeping lately. I'll goto bed and wake up a few hours later and I won't be able to get back to sleep. Last night I got to sleep around 11 and around 1 my phone rang, and then again around 2. I keep it on for emergencies and my friends who always forget to sleep at night. If I don't want to get a call I won't keep it on, simple as that. But usually, in fact always, I'll go right back to sleep when woken, except this time …

So I walk up to my stoop today and find an add for Harbor Fitness with this naked lady squatting with her legs crossed right under their logo. She's not showing but she's wet, fit, and and on my stoop.

Now I don't give a shit normally. Pretty girls are pretty all the time I've never had a problem with a naked one either, and you know. Sex sells. But... we got an elementary school right across the street, a 2 Middle schools in the area and a lot o…

So I finish this big fight with my brother. It was needless and fruitless and it drove me nuts. The cause of all the madness, me trying to help my father.

Go figure.

So I did some good stuff today to unwind. I got to hang out with a very good friend of mine and watch Being John Malkovich.. the kind of friend who I haven't seen enough of and I'd like to see more of. I did some work in the morning and got most of my domains straightened out. I had …

I just need to get regular sleep.

and I've got a strong urge to go watch old horror movies with good company and some moonshine.

-Francis

Coffe and Cigarettes is a movie thats out now at BAM (probably other odd theaters too). I'd take a look at the trailer if anything. It looks odd yet fun and the cast is so amazing that I'm wondering what the hell is going on. You've got everyone from Roberto Benigni to Bill Murray to The White Stripes each in their own skit in this film.

(Btw I'm hosting that trailer off my own server not apples so if you want a link to show your friends either s…

Troy was good, Achilles was valiant and could care less about the war and his part was played well. It wasn't Gladiator epic, but It shouldn't have had been.

American Beauty was... beautiful =)

-Franics

PS. Alright you deserve a better update then this. I've been moving, I've got most of my stuff here in ny and I'm trying to not live out of stolen milk crates (I've got sooo many.) I've been spending quality time with old friends but I need to go …

I took a gander at some of the newer Exploding Dog pictures and picked a few.

i am not really stuck here, i just don't realize it
sometimes i'm angry that i feel so angry
I woke up like this
it was because of you

-Francis

Tonight I saw A Perfect Circle in concert. They were pretty good and who ever was managing the show did them justice. The lighting, the set, the sound it was wonderful that manager did right by APC.

I have also confirmed my belief that even though it's an hour and 45 minutes away from here (as opposed to 30 minutes) the sound at PNC Bank Arts Center is twice times better then Camden's Tweeter Center and that it vastly makes up for extra traveling…

Tri City Herald ran a story about some kid who drew anti-war sketches for a school assignment. The kid turned it in and the school turned him in to the Secrete Service. Can you honestly believe this?

Thanks to Mom who emailed me the article.

-Francis

I'm told panic attacks are all in your mind. You can either fear the attack and have one, or you can have something trigger it. I get triggered panic attacks, my breath will shorten, my heart rate will increase, and I'll get palpitations like crazy. I can calm down but my heart will still steadily beat away like its got something to prove palpating the entire time.

I also can't sleep when I get worked up.

Today I finished a total of 11 hours of h…